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Today's medItation

Today's meditation was listening to Hemi sync track two introduction to focus 10:

I saw a mans face in a mirror and it looks like a light was shining on the mirror so his face was kinda illuminated and kind of shadowed. I did not recognize the face and it was not mine.

I also so a man in a suit, with really curly hair and a cheesy smile removing his sun glasses.

New symbols

Here is updated symbols I have sketched out from my recent meditations:

Today's meditation

Today's meditation was with about 45 minutes long while listening to boxed nirvana.

Saw a tan van in a parking lot with a long dark window
Saw an ATM machine ?
Symbols I seen today was three smaller triangles in a triangle formation. A large V with a circle at the top in the center. And a circle with a lot of triangles coming out if the surface, almost resembles a sun. (uploading new images today of recent symbols)

Also a lot of scenery from stores. A lot of random isles and a lot of large doors.

There was also some numbers I remember wanting to remember but now I can not remember what they were.

I also noticed today that a lot of the still scenery seemed like it was being illuminated but a light source.

Images of things I saw

Here are a collection of things I have seen during my meditations. I am NOT an artist so they lack great detail. Some things I have seen are beyond my drawing capacities so they are no included.






Any questions on any of them feel free to message me.

Today's meditation

My meditation today was done listening to hemi sync intro to focus 10

entered a long skinny empty white room and had the thought of no Tim and no cupcake?

Saw a interesting fancy looking V with the left half white and the right half dark.

Brief glimpse of a curb and a part of a road.

Saw a few shelves of possibly computer monitors briefly.

Seen the time 11:44

Seen a crescent moon 

Saw this before and seen it again to. Its like the shape of an upside down Y with the Y made of some shiny metal and some wire sticking out of each end of the Y and connected to a circle. (I posted a drawing I made of it)

The gray alien

I was thinking about the gray aliens for some reason yesterday. What if the gray beings that people report seeing and interacting with are not actual beings? What if the gray it's self is just a biological machine which allows a point of consciousness or other entitity, though form, spirit or other being that does not have physical pressense in this dimension to enter this gray vehicle and have an exsistance in this dimension. The gray machine would allow it to be able to exist in our dimension/focus level or vibration level during it's occupancy of the gray machine body.

So if something happens to it while physically manifested via the gray body it just goes back it's original form and then gets another gray body and comes back to continue its work. Just as if you where going on a trip and crashed your car and you finished your trip with the rental car, lol. Same concept.

 Much like a medium and allow a spirit or other nonphysical being to use their body as a vehicle to speak and act through.

Sorry for the random thoughts just wanted to share.

Possible obe or dream thereof

Dream or OBE?

Today I had to get up early for an appointment so last night was an early to bed night. Around 9 p.m. I prepared for bed. Knowing that I had to be up early I took an ambien (10 mg) and went to bed. I listened to the holo sync track one the dive. Frustrated i was still awake I went and took half another ambien (5 mg) and came back to bed and then listened to Hemi sync focus 10 exploration sleep track. I dozed off a couple times and eventually turn it off. I turned to my side and rested for a bit and then heard a loud buzzing in my ears and then my face felt a vibration and the vibration slowly went from my face to my whole head then down through my body. After a minute I was able to role out of my body. I walked away from my bed towards the bedroom door and I remember seeing my dog on the floor. I was curious if he could see me but I don't remember if he could or not. When I got to my bedroom door I tried to see if I could push through it but could not so I opened the door with the door handle. I walked out of the bedroom and headed outside which i was standing in my driveway. I remember looking up in the sky for the moon and when I found it I was trying to jump up in the sky to fly to the moon. But all I could do was jump not even high let alone fly to the moon. This was all I remember.

Now the reason I don't know if this was an actual obe or a dream of an obe is because when I take my ambien I remember all my physical activity at night like a dream. For instance I take my ambien and goto bed and the next day I wake up and think that's weird in had a dream I made scrambled eggs but then go into the kitchen only to find a pan that had eggs scrambled in it, lol.

Meditation today

Almost an hour with boxed nirvana playing and here is what I can recall. Today was hard to remember everything as there was a lot of random apparently non connected flow.


White flowing curtain
Someone standing looking at the curtain
Symbol like a sideways F
Big cards that unfolded and had symbols on them but I can't recall the symbols they faded after they were read off the cards.
Symbol of a crescent moon
A tube filled with white energy or light with dark caps on each end.

Today's meditation

Ok today I listened to the boxed nirvanan track and did about a 55 minute session. I seen a piece of paper witb the gold letters deiver written on it at the top. I have no idea what that means. A desk later on. Then an old lady I don't recognize buzz by me. That is about it. Meditations lately hasnt been very exciting with the visuals. I hope this changes soon.

Minor progress?

Today was a very long Mediation sessions. Almost two hours actually. I started by listening to the boxed nirvana track in it's entirety. Other than relaxation and random abstract images nothing really at this point. iTunes quickly picked up some tracks that I had recently listened to. I just followed whatever played. A brief belief expansion track player about 5 minutes long. Then it went into Hemi sync wave 6 - odyssey track one, which is sensing locale 1. At the point of him taking you from focus 10 to focus 12 around the 11 count mark something happened. I am not sure how to describe it. It's as it my head was a rocket that was just setoff blasting toward and a slight change in the darkness. I also felt a noticeable heat in my head. This whole thing only last maybe 5 seconds then went away. I continued with the track and even listened to the second track hoping the same thing would happen when it took you from focus 10 to 12 but it didn't happen. By this time even though i really did not have much body awareness I could start to detect aches coming on from being in the same position for so long. So I ended the session.

Holo sync

I am starting the holo sync series as well and tonight will be my second listen to the dive. Supposed to listen to just this track for the first 14 days. I am still using the Hemi sync series as well.

Yesterdays meditation

I was meditating yesterday with boxed nirvana playing and towards the end of an hour long session I  start getting thoughts of a wire pyramid with crystal points wire wound something cobalt hematite and electric current then eye of horris, a crook and an ankh and a few other things. After ending the session my nose started gushing blood. Was weird.

Obe only a dream

Ok I was lying in bed and closed my eyes. Then started counting backwards from 16 relaxing even more with each breath and each count backwards. I got to around 8 and felt vibrations and heard almost a freight train sound. Then I could see the wall but my eyes were closed yet I could still see. I was questioning weather I really had my eyes closed so I open them and snapped out of it. My eyes were closed but I could see right through my eyelids like they were open. So I started the count again and once again around the 8 count I got the vibrations and the loud noise and vision through my eyes. I was thinking this is it I need to get out so I rolled and part of my came out but I couldn't get the rest to roll out. I struggled hard and pulled on the edge of the bed and more of me came out. I could now reach the night stand I pulled more and after a lot of struggle I fell out of my body onto the floor. I was out! I stood up and though I did it, I finally did it. So I turned so I could see my body lying there and when I looked there was no me. Then I realize I must of dreamt it but now I was awake. But then I actually woke up again to realize I was just dreaming about the dream. So I was dreaming "that I was dreaming" that I was in obe!?

Not much

Did a little over an hour meditation today. after nothing much happening on it's own, I imagined a pyramid scene. Immediately I seen a cresent moon float over the pyramid and the whole thing disapeared. I believe I saw a stick will like glowy carvings on the end of it. Was to faint and fleeting to make out. And finally towards the end I saw a huge screen float in front of me. Like a movie screen at the theater bubt nothing was on it and it disappeared. After this I quite.